Boot Camp has been cancelled on account of the rain. I am going to a Yoga class instead for the first time in 4 years. This creates a cycle of fear and shame (fear of being able to do the class and shame at being afraid in the first place) and simultaneous elation and hope (elation that I am making a choice that is good for me and hope that I am turning a corner in taking care of my body) - and honestly, this level of emotional cacophony little difficult to manage. Do you think it would be weird to have a cocktail before yoga? I mean, it is after 5:00pm...

Yes, this really is my life : l