Tonight

Tonight the Girls Girls Girls called called called me up and sang a song to me based on the letters of my name. I suspect they wrote it during the overture : ) I am so touched and yet, of course, as I hung up the phone I felt an overwhelming sense of quiet nostalgia. Can I feel nostalgia so soon? It was only a little over a month ago I was in Austin, making stuff up with the best of them. Now is so different and the expected tomorrows more different still. I mean, what make us who we are? Am I "her" anymore?

I guess the hard part is, as I say "the best of them" I begin to realize that they really are. Those girls are the finest troupe of players, singers, rehearsers, dancers, dressers, friends and strong supportive women I may ever know and perform with. Sniff sniff. What's a girl to do? What's that... go to Paris for a week? Well, gosh, I couldn't just... well, maybe?

Sigh. I had a wonderful weekend with great friends J & E. D. showed up too and we ran the gamut of activities from wedding shower for beloved friends to a kickin' rock show at a diner in Worcester. There was also lasagna and cable tv. I am very very tired but hopeful for what's next. Monday is the beginning of a shiny new week.

I must use this space to give a shout out to Le Kik. Where are you woman? Give me a buzz please. : )

It's only 11pm in Austin. Right about now R. and I would be eating the famous Stars' Dip (refried beans, onions, pico, shredded colby and cheddar - c'est manifique!) at Starseeds where we went after every Sunday night rehearsal. We'd be making attempts at talking over the deliciously deafening punk and new wave soundtrack and drinking coffee, writing things down to remember for the week. We had breakfast at Starseed's with my dad the day I left for Boston. This entry is turning into a memory list. "Sometimes just writing it down helps" my mom said tonight over dinner. I hope she's right.

I wish I had some Stars' Dip. That would really hit the spot.